Sunday 4 October 2015

UNSAID


There were so many things I couldn’t say,
You turned your back and walked away…

Even in your absence,
Things made sense…
And after much rumination there was illumination and I could know the reason why,
It was the love you had accidentally passed me by…

And now till forever…
As the sun sets, you rise in my heart, and it’s just the start…
Of a journey to my land of dreams, beyond the realms…
Where I meet you every day,
And the moon can vouch,
It was just meant to be this way…

You can give me million reasons,
Change time and tide,
But you can’t stop my heart that’s on your love ride…

And every day my memories from your heart you try to bream,
Just take a chance and let me in,
And I will show you how to dream…

There were no lies between you and me,
Through each other we could see,
The beautiful world that is meant to be…
You said nothing of what you knew,
The secrets of your heart were not few,
Yet something in you I could feel,
The careless gestures of love that you tried to conceal…

Is there no love in your heart for me?
You have closed your eyes,
You just don’t want to see…

Undercurrents don’t arise without reason,
Neither does the heart dance to unknown signs,
The clouds are pregnant,
Let the dessert receive its first rain…

Don’t complicate it,
Together it could be a perfect fit,
And trust me we can make it….

I have been patient,
But my faith is on a sway,
Don’t let it go away,
Am giving up day by day,
And we know it was not meant to end this way…

Monday 10 August 2015

JADE

Resting spaces and unseen grimaces,
Known words and unknown silences,
Visible deception and hidden faces,
Camouflage vision and reality has no traces...

The heart always sees its desire,
Foolish it is to ignore what is bizarre,
Bonded to self defeating fragments of wire,
Burning painfully in a self created fire...

Losing thyself I thought I found you,
I lost self and your presence had no clue,
Hope made me stick to your thoughts like a glue,
Very late did I realize it was a process of self sue...

Words hurt and scar more than you think,
I was torn apart in an eyes blink,
I once connected and in your love I sink,
Surprisingly now I don’t find the link...

Chiseled are my feelings and nothing left to preserve,
As I observe,
Your words painfully resonate from its conserve,
I have let you hurt me more than I deserve...

May be tomorrow I will live the words you said,
My heart is Red,
I will let go off your hurtful love for which I was not made,

A gem but a stone, your heart is a Jade...

Sunday 12 July 2015

EVERYDAY


Understand my silence when I am too afraid to speak to you
Look into my eyes they are waiting for you
Believe my truth it was only you

I am not ignorant of your efforts, neither am I unaware of your pain
Your feelings have drenched me like the rain
It’s only your love that has kept me sane

All that I could give you is freedom of choice
The freedom to come and go without noise
And in turn you taught me poise

Never have I been touched with a love of this kind
Beyond earthy principles, beyond comprehension of the mind
You are a gem that is difficult to find

I understand your unspoken
And even though you were broken
You loved in silence and I was taken

You are always in my prayers without a say
For whom we love don’t go away

They walk beside us every day...........

Thursday 11 June 2015

FOREVER

I will remain in you forever,
You chase me out and I will linger,
For even if you escape me, you can’t escape my thought
And that’s what would hurt,

You pushed me to a corner,
It ignited the burner,
It clearly showed me my place,
I loved it there because that was your grace,

Not all flames set fire, Some set smoke
And I choke...
Smoke dissipates,
The confusion of your presence suffocates...

Why did you leave things incomplete and unclear?
Moments of longing act like spear,
Cutting through my clouded heart of desire,
Will I ever see you? ... its bizarre

What’s mine???
Mind, body and soul make a complex trine...
Incompatible dimensions, paradoxical intentions,
Living through ramifications...

The mismatched pieces of puzzle lead somewhere,
To a no man’s land, no where...
Where heaven and earth unite,
Free from bondages, the hour of the twilight...

The fire you have set in my heart shall light you forever,
And you know it’s not over,
How can you stay in peace...

When I will love you forever !!!

Thursday 19 March 2015

I HATE YOU

I don’t think you made my life better but definitely you didn’t worsen it either.  You were never present, but you never let me feel your absence either. With you it’s a love hate paradox.  

I hate you for not doing things my way, but the outcome is beautiful when things are your way...
I hate your uncertainty but then the most certain things in life have ditched...
You didn’t give me what I wanted, but you also didn’t give me what I didn’t want...

You torture, you play mind games, and you irritate and then strangely leave a deep desire sinking within me to spend every irritating minute with you...
I have no right to stop you from going, but I can at least say please don’t leave

No just leave, I hate you...

I don’t want you... 
wait I mean..... I badly need u...

Friday 13 February 2015

SOULMATE

Losing through you what seemed myself, I find selves unimaginably mine[e. e. Cummings]

“And when one of them meets with his other half… the pair is lost in an amazement of love and friendship and intimacy, and would not be out of the other’s sight…: these are the people who pass their whole lives together; yet they could not explain what they desire of one another.” [Plato, 360 B.C.E]

This is exactly what happens when you meet your soulmate. You don’t meet your soulmate easily nor do you meet until you have attained the wisdom to recognise him or her. God polishes you, makes you go through fire, makes you strong and worthy of your soulmate. Its not until you have passed these karmic testings that u’ll meet your soulmate. Soulmates are not two people who rush into a relationship before they are wise enough to choose. Your soulmate moves you from your reality to god’s reality. And once you have stood the test of time and have known your soulmate, you will feel entirely whole, healed and intact in his or her presence, like no piece missing from the puzzle and feel enriched in your spirit.

It is said that since the beginning of time everyone was created as perfect soul. These souls had two halves. One half consisted of the male energy and the other half consisted of the female energy. Each was incomplete without the other and together they were power house of energy and creativity. Together they were the ultimate dynamo and hence susceptible to pride and exploitation.  To teach a lesson the creator separated these halves into human forms and bought them into worldly existence, to live their independent lives, experience and expand and undergo their individual karmic testing till they are wise and worthy enough to unite with their other half.

Failure to overcome your karmic testing would lead to failure in finding your soulmate. There is an incomplete feeling in the process. There is a void within you. There is loneliness and separation, which gives rise to a desire to connect to your soulmate. This is why when you meet your soulmate, there is an instant connection and you really can’t figure out the reason behind your meeting. You feel strange yet intrigued by the mystery of your meeting. There is a deep sense of connection and understanding and you feel very familiar and just a feeling of being at home. This person may not be the kind of people you usually interact with yet this unfamiliarity gives way to familiarity, security and comfort. You are drawn like a magnet to this person. It becomes difficult to lament reasons for your attraction to this person. Amidst the frustration to understand this strange alchemy, you might want to move away from this person but something gets you back to this person again and again.

It’s strange but you can read each other’s mind. Words really don’t matter; it’s just that you both know. You both are telepathically connected and similar in many fashions, yet different to complement each other. This person is not someone you want but someone you need to change your life for the better and bring about virtues in you that you badly need to learn. In any soul mate relationship, you will need to give up the illusion that there is a perfect person waiting for you who will fulfil your every expectation and give you everything you desire. Do not expect your ideal soul mate to be someone who is always loving and easy to get along with, who agrees with everything you say or do, and who brings you a life of ease or comfort. It’s a paradox, you really can’t figure out the answer why you fell for this person yet this person would bring you nothing but happiness.

The discernible meeting of an intimate soul mate comes with powerful emotion and strong physical attraction. There is a chemistry and instant recognition. There is an overwhelming aura of this person that hovers over you, passions run deep and at times to the extent of ruminations and obsessions. But unlike other relationships you don’t feel like resisting this ardour rather lose yourself into its mesmerising captivity.

What, did I hear you asking me how do you search for your soulmate???

My friend, trust me, give up searching. Soulmates can never be searched for, they just happen to meet !!! They will not arrive in your life until you are tried and tested, until destiny churns and twists your patience, your dreams and every emotion, till finally when you hopelessly give up. And then the tides take turn and enters this grand person into your life with silent footsteps at a destined time beyond your control, often accidentally, and without your recognition as such. You should take risks, meet failures, disappointment and disillusion, but you should never give up faith and cease in your search for love, for in the end you will triumph, your patience, perseverance and persistence will never go unrewarded

Don’t expect this person to arrive and change you, you find the balance first and move towards change, and then they will eventually come and take you to the unexplored realms of life, the wild blue unknown yonder. You both would be like balloons moving together in one direction and that direction is up. When soulmates meet things just happen, every possible obstacle dissipates into the air, impossible turns into possible, miracles happen and that’s how the divine hand blesses you, because you have successfully accomplished the divine will. As rightly said by Arielle Ford “When deep down in the core of your being you believe that your soulmate exists, there is no limit to the ways he or she can enter your life”

And this valentine it would be incomplete if I cease to address my hearts longing to you my soulmate, for I know you are somewhere seeking me, listening to my hearts call...

I know I’ll find you accidentally, amidst trading hearts,
I’ll take a deep breath and stand amazed, sensing cupid’s silent darts...
And slowly I’ll find myself melting to your silent hypnotic gestures,
My broken heart will start healing all its raptures...
Your handsome intense face would be so familiar,
That I have known you since ages, my twin soul, would be absolutely clear...
You would send me into a state of trance, where I would be waiting for a chance,
To be in your arms and make with you the divine love dance...
When I sit in silence and asked my heart, who do I belong to? Every part of my heart shouts yes, yes, yes it’s you!!! .
With you I would be one, with you I would grow with virtues that never belonged to me, with you I would be complete, secured and fearless, with you there would be no barriers of distance, time or space,

With you my will would be at par with god and my loved ones, with you my desires would come to an end and supreme bliss I would transcend, intoxicated by your presence every second.

Thursday 5 February 2015

VOID

Part of everyone’s happiness, away from mine
Amidst fog waiting for sunshine
Every passing time brings cloud of change
Moments of regret have no exchange
Thoughts tend to meander and fear makes total surrender
What keep things going, I wonder...

In parts I search for my scattered self
Should I seek for help?
What I seek is not what seeks me
Make me void of desire, it’s a humble plea
The divine is too difficult to comprehend
Give me the wisdom to mark the end...

Singing song to a tune that does not fit
Accepting potential misfit
Accused n not able to explain
Who am I suppose to blame?
I am a prisoner of my heart and guilty by mind
Winning one day at a time, no rewind...