UNREQUITED LOVE

With you I have been in love of a kind I have never been before,

Washed by the waves, unable to drown I am struggling at your shore.

Stepped on every stone and pebble that you do,

Breathe the air that touches you,

Felt everything you go through,

So close to you yet far away, I am at a loss when I think what to do !!!

My love is effortless, for my restlessness and desire can never get me to you,

It’s only yours that can get us together, but the chances are few.

To let you go is not easy but to hold on to you is simply crazy,

I doubt whether we share the same feelings, an expert at circumlocution that you are, making everything appear hazy.

My deliberations don’t help me,

The greater I keep the distance the closer they get me.

It’s a cosmic conspiracy,

Of which there is no escape, how do I explain this urgency.

It’s difficult to take off, my emotions are greasy,

Words don’t come easy,

Your presence scares,

Your gruff manners and eccentricity tears.

What a tremendous sense of control you have over me,

I am losing myself on to thee.

I wish it was easy to escape your hypnotic trap and just walk away,

Of which I make futile efforts every day.

My heart is in a civil strife,

Not knowing what it wants, leads to sadistic ripples that cut like a knife.

Will I ever fit into those glass slippers?

I am insidiously burning in your flame that flickers.

Can someone tell you how it creates distortion of self?

Can I ever tell you I need your help?

Can someone tell you, the unstitched corners of my heart need to be sew?

Can I ever tell how intensely I feel for you?

I know my love would disappear one day into the air,

Unsaid, unheard and unanswered, layer by layer,

But I often ask myself would it be fair?

To not let you know somebody at a distance loves you and needs your care.

Strange is this saga of unrequited love,

For it giving this fire within me a fan,

I don’t want to do what I can,

For I am already enjoying this painfully joyous existence, against my logical plan !!!

DEW DIAMONDS

Way long back something bright and twinkling caught my attention

When my little feet were dancing on the wet winter grass full of illusion

It shined and dazzled like diamond reflecting the sun’s penetrating rays

When my innocent curiosity tried to hold the dew drops in multiple ways

The bubbly cheer on my face faded into fear

When I found the dew drops disappear

Tears rolled down my soft plump cheeks

And my little heart broke with pain that still leaks

I ran to mamma for her embrace was my healing balm

Secure was her presence that helped me calm

Not knowing that the world was cruel

I complained her somebody stole my dew drops before I could hold them well

Mamma kissed me on my forehead and hugged me tight

Making every effort to protect my innocent heart that was captured by fright

Said mamma something that bought sparkle to my wet round eyes

That restored hope and I knew they were not lies

“One day will enter an angel into your life from the heaven

And will get you back everything that was ever taken

All you need to do is patiently wait by letting things go

For the angel shall turn the dew drops into diamond which you can hold and show

My child the dew drops were never gone,

They just disappeared so that they again come when its dawn

The dawn upon you of the wisdom

And then shall the angel take you to where you belong, your diamond studded kingdom”